This picture perfectly illustrates how I have felt about the holidays for, oh, about the last 20 years. I saw this image on Pinterest the other day and I laughed out loud because it is funny, but then I started to think about how much I related to the picture.
I grew up in Christmas tree farm country. Lots of people make their living growing and selling Christmas trees, so they are not just a tradition that brighten and decorate the house once a year, they are a source of income and security for lots of families.
I dated and lived with a Christmas tree grower for many years during my 20s, so I was a “Christmas tree widow” for 10 years. And you really do lose your loved one to the fields during the harvest season — only about 6 weeks to make the income for the whole 52 weeks of the year. The pressure is high and the work days are long.
And in the end, you get a Charlie Brown Christmas tree. They weren’t quite as bad as the one pictured to the left, but we always got the left over, culled trees. The good trees were sold, not saved for the house.
These years began my disenchantment with the holidays. Even after the Christmas tree grower and I finally split the Christmas tree ornaments for good, I had little joy in the Christmas season.
I would turn the radio station when Christmas carols came on; I stopped getting a Christmas tree; I hated shopping for Christmas presents because of the crowds. The only thing that I liked about Christmas was the reason behind it: Jesus’s birth.
This year, however, ring the bells! Ding dong! The witch is dead. Or, sticking with the theme, Scrooge has seen all three ghosts and converted. I am actually enjoying this holiday season. I enjoyed decorating the Christmas tree. I even put lights on a tree outside! Yesterday, I went to Wal-Mart and found myself dancing in the aisles to the cheery Christmas music on the speakers. I realized what I was doing when I noticed that one little boy kept standing at the end of whatever aisle I was in, watching me. Once I realized what he was doing, I put some extra wiggle and kick into each aisle. I figured the kid should get rewarded (or punished depending on his point of view) for stalking me in Wal-Mart.
The difference in this year and past years — this year I’m not depressed. That bitch disease has been stealing Christmas from me — depression is The Grinch!
I’ve gotten my Christmas present early this year — I’m dancing in the aisles again (literally). I hope your presents are as awesome as mine has been.
This is the best Christmas present ever. I have been asking for this for you for a long time.
Thank you for the prayers! They worked!
I just received the best gift I could receive this Christmas. I have the happiest heart right now. I love you, Cristy.
I love you, too!