I know that there have been dozens (or more) of articles and blogs about how music can evoke memories. You know, the song that takes you back to the year you got your driver’s license, or back to your senior prom, or the song that was playing when you broke up with a serious girl or boyfriend? For years I couldn’t listen to Bryan Adam’s Everything I Do (I Do For You) without getting sad. I am not sure why it had such a powerful effect on me — I assume it had to do with the rough patches my ex-boyfriend and I were going through at the time Robin Hood was released. Now I can listen to it with no problem.
Joan Jett singing Crimson and Clover takes me to the amusement park at the Pavilion at Myrtle Beach and a ride there, where the song was blasting and I felt as good as I have felt.
Then sometimes a song captures the feelings that you are having right now, rather than bringing back emotions.
That’s what happened to me today.
The best way to describe how I’ve been feeling lately is like time is passing and I’m missing something. I think there are several things driving this feeling:
- I’m having a mid-life plight. Not a crisis — a plight. Let’s get that straight. But I am pondering how I have spent the last 20+ years and if I want to spend the next 20 doing the same thing.
- My sister and I closed our dad’s estate last week. I wasn’t expecting it to make me as sad as it did. And it also made me think about what a person leaves behind when they pass. The material things are not important — it’s the stories and the memories by which my sister and I feel most blessed.
So, today, when my iPhone music shuffled to Piano Man by Billy Joel, two things happened. First, a Billy Joel song took me right back to my adolescent and teenage years. He was one of my favorite singers when I was growing up. Second, the lyrics of the song hit me in the gut:
It’s nine o’clock on a Saturday
The regular crowd shuffles in
There’s an old man sitting next to me
Making love to his tonic and gin
He says, “Son can you play me a memory
I’m not really sure how it goes
But it’s sad and it’s sweet
And I knew it complete
When I wore a younger man’s clothes”
Oh, Billy, you say the best. Time is passing, and sometimes the memory is just out of reach. But I can take comfort in the fact that the memory is sad and sweet and it was mine. And I’ll have sweet, sad (and happy) memories from this stage of my life, too.
Now, I just have to find the music that will bring me back to now.
Hey, Matt — let’s buy those tickets to shoot zombies with the paintball guns. And let’s play some rockin’ music while we do it.